Ek choti si guzarish

Aaj fir ek ankahi si khwahish ki hai
Tujhe paane ki fir se guzaarish ki hai
Na yakeen raha hai apni kismat par
Fir aaj apni kismat ki aazmaish ki hai

Tu kar raha hai door jaane ki koshish humse
tujhe paas rakhne ki fir se chaahat ki hai
Sun sake tu aaj fir chaukhat par teri,
zara zor se apne kadmon ki aahat ki hai

Aaj fir aayi hai ek aur galti meri saamne

fir tujhse maafi ki guzarish ki hai,

padh sake tu meri aankon ko aaj fir,

fir aaj tujhse nazrein milane ki chahat ki hai

na rakh paunga tujhe paas yeh lagta hai tujhe

aaj fir mere ishq ki aazmaish hui hai

kehti hai tu door rehna mujhse,

Is paagal se aaj fir tune samajdari ki khwaish ki hai

Na raha hai yakeen tujhe mere shabdon par

fir bhi ek aur baar apne shabdon ki numayish ki hai

laut aaye tu ke fir ek baar mere paas

aaj fir kuch aisa likhne ki kooshish ki hai

Aaj fir ek ankahi si khwaish ki hai

aaj fir tujhe paane ki koshish ki hai

aapne dil ko tere kadmoon mein rakh kar

aaj fir tujhse laut aane ki guzaarish ki hai

Kab se ...

Kab se thi ek tamanna dil mein ,

Kaash tum bhi kabhi humare ishq ke mohtaaj hote,

Na rehti yeh tanhai is dil mein ,

Na kisi buri aadat ke mohtaaj hote,

Na ghoomte yuh bewajah gali gali,

Na kisi ke aane ke aksar ehsaas hote,

Na khalti kami kisi ki is dil ko,

Na hi kisi ki aahat ke aghaas hote,

Na rehti woh ranj tujhse bhi kabhi,

Aur na koi gile shikwe dil ke paas hote,

Kab se thi ek tamanna is dil mein,

Ke tum kabhi toh humare ishq ke mohtaj hote ...

Kids once again...

A new challenge everyday

a new achievement everyday,

life has such a lot of it to offer me.

Goals and plans everywhere.

Till almost as far as i can see.

There's such a lot of expectation,

i feel i still have so much to earn.

A vast sea of knowledge,

still so much more to learn.

I'm tryin to run fast,

tryin to keep up with the pace.

Everyone expects me to still go faster,

settling for nothin less than an ace.

I'm starting to get tired,

my limbs ache as i test them,

stretchin them more.

I'm sacred i may not make it till the end,

i don't see the finish line,

i'm still not sure.

As i rest a while to catch my breath,

and relieve my limbs from the relentless pain,

i remember those good old days and wonder,

What If I could be a kid once again.

GoodBye ... ???

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GoodBye …

(Just Can't say GoodBye ...)

I saw her for the first time
She looked soothing to the eye
She was not stunning nor very beautiful
But I still couldn’t help but pry

We met, we talked, and we became friends
And We fought, we smiled and we made up
We also always made it a point
To have coffee in the same cup

Time went by and we moved closer
But she always hesitated, never called me her lover
Whenever the dreaded question was asked
She would always run for cover

I had promised to give her a way out
And I always kept my word
Whenever she was lip tied
I gave her the ‘way out’ that she deserved

Then came the day she confessed her love
But she said, we had nothing from it to gain
I didn’t come out of the trance but still
… I fell in love with her again

We fought when she said she didn’t need me
She’d better be left alone
I thought it was one of her jokes
But her eyes had the look, that of stone

Tears ran down as I realized the fact
And I couldn’t fathom, why was I in so much pain
Then I saw tears in her eyes too
…. And I fell in love with her again

She told me of a guy one day
She’d been talking with him for a while
She said ‘He’s not a bad guy’
And I tried hard to keep the same smile

She tried again, to convince me
‘Don’t meet or talk’, she said ‘Please refrain’
But her eyes pleaded, ‘Don’t go’
…. And I fell in love with her again

She kept trying to keep me away
But she kept falling for me again
And whenever she said, ‘I need you’
…. I fell in love with her again

She tried being aggressive too
‘I’m very indifferent’, she said
But I could always notice it
While saying that her eyes, with tears, were red

She could not hide her love for me
Always remembering me when it would rain
I would also drench myself sometimes
To hide the tears and relieve the pain

I would tell her I always missed you
In the wind and in the drops of rain
And then, the day, she said, ‘I missed you too’
…I fell in love with her again

She told me she was doing it for me
She didn’t want to give me any pain
I understood then that Love isn’t just all smiles
…. And I fell in love with her again

I told her I’m doing it for her too
And then, that night again, it rained
Little pearls ran down her cheek
…. And I fell in love with her again

We realized that we’re in love
The first time, and now, once again
I held her in my arms, she held me tight
… And I fell in love with her again

We realized that love isn’t about receiving
Its’ about giving everything, time and again
I’m happy we’re still together, and with that
…. I fell in love with her again

Who said you fall in love just once
I feel there’s still a lot more to gain
I’m in love with her, but still, everyday
…I’m falling in love with her all over again.

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Chale the ....

Chale the hum unki Kashti ko kinare le aane,
Samandar ki gehraiyon mein khud hi kho gaye
Soch kar chale the lauta denge use zindagi
Apni hi kashti ko kinaare laana bhool gaye

Raah dikhana fitrat ho chuki thi humaari
Din ke ujaalo mein bhi diya jala ke chalte rahe
Na Mila aaj koi musafir saath chalne ke liye
Toh raat ke andhere mein hi diya jalaana bhool gaye

Fark bhi na kar paaye manzil aur raaste mein hum
Raahon ko hi apni manzil samajte rahe
Mashgool ho gaye itna ek musafir ke saath
Ki Manzil tak jaane ka raasta hi bhool gaye

Chalne lage uss musafir ke saath saath
Jaana kahan hai humein, woh bhi bhool gaye
Ummeed toh de di use jeene ki
Par khud ke vajood ki wajaah hi bhool gaye

Pyaare Bete

Kehta hu tujhe jeene ka sahaara
ungli pakad kar teri main chalta hu
Tujhe chalna sikhate hue bhi
Sahaare se tere hi chalta hu


Thaamta hai jab haath tu mera
Un nanhi si unglion se
Karta hu mehsoos ek mazbooti ajeeb si
Tere in masoom se hathoon mein


Chalte hai tere nanahe kadam
Ek atal vishwaas ke saath
Na jaane thaam sakunga kab tak
Is tez duniya mein tera haath


Utrega jab tu duniya ki daud mein
Seekh lega jab daudna tu teez
Karna chahuna aaraam main thoda sa
La dena mujhe ek kursi aur ek meez.


Chodne padenge humein haath kuch der
Jab Na hoga mujh mein who junoon
Karne hoge saare sapne tujhe poore
Aur main chahunga thoda sa sukoon


Sahaara chahunga main tera us din
Na karega jab zamaana mujhe kabool
Kam ho jayegi samaj thodi duniya ki
Karne lagunga jab baatein main fizool


Thaamunga un hathoon ko fir se
Honge kamzoor jab mere haath
Na thama dena mujhe laathi us din
Rakhna mujhe hamesha apne hi saath


Na thukra dena mujhe bojh samaj kar
Na chood dena mujhe akela
Aashayen hai bohot mujhe tujhse
Bhool na jaana bachpan yeh tera


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KAASH ...

Dekhte the tumhe chup chup ke pehle
Na kar paye the kabhi mulakaat
Aaj soch rahe hai fir aapke bare mein
Fir chidi hai wo purani baat

Keh na sake the us waqt bhi kisi ko
Ki hote the hum kitne bekaraar
Humesha hote the aap doston ke beech
Soch kar bhi kar na paye the kabhi izhaar

Aaj bhi yaad hai humein wo pehli mulakat
Us din bhi nai hui thi aapse koi baat
Magar yaad hai woh gehri aankhon ke samandar
Aur aapki zulfoon ki woh gehri si raat.

Phir na mile the hum ek zamaane tak
na jaane kho gaye the tum kahan
doondhti thi meri nazreen tumko
Jab bhi jaata tha main yahan wahan.


Ek ajeeb si hichkichahat thi tujhmein
Mile jab hum firse ek aarse ke baad
Na kar paya tujhse baat main tab bhi
Aa gaya who purana zamaana firse yaad

Magar aa gaye the hum aage bohot zindagi mein
Le chuke the faisle kuch ahem
Socha kar le izhaar fir bhi is baar aapse
Par himmat ho gayi thi ab kuch kam

Milte hai ab aapse ek dost bankar
Kar lete hai aapse kabhi mulakaat
Sochte hai kar lenge kabhi kabhi aapse
Dosti mein hi pyaar ki do-do baat.

Best Poem ...

This is one of the best poems I've ever got, the best part of it being that it was written for me ... lol. Jokes apart, this one is from my sister and its amazing to see how she was able to fit all those years we've been together into these few lines. When I read it the first time, I could literally recall those moments as if I was experiencing it all over again.

Thank you sis.

Here's the poem ....

From day one,
Without knowin it,
I loved u with all my heart..
As i grew, i looked up to u n no other,
Yes we fought many a times, but u supported n encouraged me In everythin i did..
U were my best friend n my hero..
I miss the way u made me feel safe..
I miss the way we used to fight to sleep in pati wala palang in baa's room..
I miss our nonsense arguements n all our wrestling matches jus to pass time..
I miss the times when u n me teased akshu..
I miss the sunday cricket matches where i used to be the umpire,
I miss the way u n akshu teased me by callin me jaadi..
I miss the times when we used to fight for mummy(whom does she love more.. n also who would sleep on her lap 1st...)
I miss the times when u always slaped me for no reason , n i used to show that to papa at nights..
I like to recollect our times together, good times n the bad..
I regret the times i yelled at u, when u where only tryin to help, but u know i did it only coz u did it to me..
I wanted to do everything u did, coz i wanted to be jus like u..
I miss the times when we fought, n all i could do is take ur pant n t-shirts n wear it, which would obviously irritate u..
I still hav that pant of urs.. n whenever i see it, i miss u..
I miss the ways u always cared for me, may be u din't ever say it but it showed..
I miss the time when papa scolded us, n instead of being serious u started laughin..
N most of all i miss the ways u always explained things to me, n din ever scold..
N my 16th birthday when u got me 16 gifts.. o sorry 14.. 2 r remaining huh bhai..
Now that i'm away from u, I feel..
There's jus no one in this whole world who can ever replace u...
U mean a lot to me BHAI...
I'll always love u no matter what..

Isn't it lovely ??

Hardwork Vs Luck

Between Hardwork and Luck, for me
Hardwork had to always matter
But at present, Its not hardwork
Its only the latter

Things keep on changing
like fast spreading forest fire
And more so, the other way
Than I'm supposed to desire

The more I try and
the more I think I could
Things tend to go only
As far as they should

As I try desperately
To break the deadlocks
Problems seem to come
More and more in flocks

The more I kept loosing
The more I had to put on stake
And then I had to wait
For one sweep of real good fate.

Life now stands to have
such wierd complications
That I dare not imagine
What would be the implications

Luck has mostly been
just at the back of my mind
But the more I loose
The more I strive to understand

God, Please dont stretch it too far
Or it would be too late
And I would be forced to believe
Hardwork is Nothing, Its just FATE.

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Ae khuda, tu hota kaisa hai?

Sochta hu poochunga khuda se
Tu kaun hai, dikhta kaisa hai
Kya tu bhi kuch kuch
Hum insaanon sa hi hota hai

Sochta hu poochunga khuda se
Kya tu bhi kabhi muskurata hai
Khush hota hai jab tu bohot
Kya tu bhi koi geet gungunata hai

Kya tujhe bhi aas hai kisise milne ki
Par tu bhi zamane se darta hai
Kya tu bhi hum insaanon ki tarah
Chup chupkar kisi pe marta hai

Kya tera bhi koi aafsana hai
Koi chehra jiska tu deewana hai
Khoobsurti ka koi aisa manzaar
Jisse yeh insaan abtak anjaana hai

Dil toota hai kya tera bhi kabhi
Kya tu bhi kabhi roya hai
Na soojha jab koi raasta tujhe
Nam si aakhon se kya tu bhi kabhi soya hai

Kya maut ka khauf nahi hai tujhe
Ya tu bhi marne se darta hai
Kya paap aur punya ke motiyon se
Kya tu bhi apni zindagi sanjota hai

Sochta hu poochunga khuda se
Tu aakhir hota kaisa hai
Kya tu bhi kuch kuch
Hum insaanon sa hi hota hai.

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Memories

Yesterday I was
Sitting under the tree
Thinking of the times
That u spent with me

I thought of the times
When sitting under the same tree
I used to admire the nature
Waiting for your entry

I thought of the times
When we went hand in hand
Sitting besides the sea
Making castles on the sand

I thought of the times
When I was in pain
You were the one to say
This isn’t the last stop of life’s train

I thought of the times
When my dark side was near
I dreamt that you’ve left me
And I always had that fear

And then my nightmare came true
And my dreams were shattered
When I met you last
“Goodbye”, were the words you uttered

If you wish to come back
Pardoning all the faults done by me
I would still be waiting for you
Under the same old tree.
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